It has occured to me now in my moment of weakness that my biggest fear is failure. I can not stand the thought of not succeeding. But I am now also re-evaluating what success is for me. I thought I was clear on what my idea of success is but I am feeling a little shaky now and maybe open for new possibilities. What I once equated to failure now seems to me to be the exact opposite. It is funny how being sick gives me the time and clarity to open up and really evaluate what my definition of certain concepts really is. It is so true that we go through different phases of life and I am so very different at 30 + than I was at 20 or 25 or 28 even. Wow.....I think it's times like this that I grow the most.